This flame still burns somewhere but not in my heart. Not again.
This flame comes from the burning candle I've put on your grave.

This pain still forces me to become hopelessly addicted but this time I won't surrender.
This pain tries to invade my thoughts, to crash the gates of my heart, to torn it in two again...

When I think about what happened exactly a year ago*, I don't consider this short time, from Sept. to Nov., as a wasted time. It just... it just had to happen. No pain, no gain...

But the thing I just can't leave and forget, even forgive is that you're totally devoid of any feelings. You're selfish and think only about your own. You can't have heard and seen me crying but you might have felt it, deep in your heart.

It all was so harmful- you, the distance, my longing, your being so remote and cold, no sympathy.

No mercy. No mercy this time, Goddamn Regret.

Oh how I wish you felt what I felt.
It would scorch you.
Destroy you
Tear you in two
Leave alone in the dusk.
You'd hopelessly search for the way but no one would help you.

But even this kind of words can't explain what I've come through.
I feel like I've won, you miserable pig.

* exactly a year ago=3rd October.